Today is the anniversary of Jeremy's birthday.  We seem to have a lot of birthdays in a year, what with kids and grand kids and in and out laws.  I am not very good at remembering them, but Sheila pretty much stays on top of them.  She even tries to remember anniversaries but they tend to slip by without notice until we read about them on Facebook or something.  I do connect 05-05-05 with Robert and Cicily and I do remember my own Feb. 6th as well as my 02-02-02.  But without my wife and my calendar I would be lost.  I do remember my own birthday, but as far as I'm concerned I could get along with out it.  

Today has been best when it was just her and me, together.  Church was okay.  Lots of people with private lives and personal goals who are pretty much wrapped up in themselves and I say that is a good way.  It is the uncommonly good person who has his own act so together that he can reach out to others.  I try to do that a little bit, but not only is it hard for one to reach out to others it is equally hard to allow yourself to be touched by someone else.  I don't think that I am as good with the later as the former.  

I am actually looking forward to another holiday day tomorrow.  I let it slip to Sheila that we might do something.  I did speak without really knowing what I was talking about, but we will see what happens.  I am really liking the time that I spend with her.  My entry from last night she called a 'love letter' and I guess that it was.  I believe that it was not only a statement of truth it was also a declaration of intention.  I hope that things can be even better and I intend to look to that more then in the past.  After all, that IS my future and there's no time like the present to prepare for it.  

 

I know that our life is going to continue to be a challenge, but I am prepared to meet it head on with her at my side.  We can do it.  We will do it.  I don't know how, but I do know with whom.