I guess that everyday is a test to see if I can still feel 'it'.  Today was particularly difficult for me.  I am mostly talking about the BYU game what with tough play, poor shooting, bad reffing and them going down hard to a team that I thought the they should have defeated.  BUT I survived and I still feel positive about my own life and circumstance.  I just expect that for me they would win, but I know that life doesn't really do anything for us.  I learned from the paper this morning that a young lady from our ward who is a star gymnast for BYU pretty much ended her season with an injury at Utah even before she competed, during warm ups.  I felt so badly for her and her family.  It is impossible to go through life and not be affected by the stuff that happens to other people.  Usually the is enough distance that I can pretend, but when is is closer like that it does have an impact.  I know that bad things have happened and I'm sure that they will keep on happening.  The least that it should do to me is cause me to think, the most is to actually cause pain.  That's just the way that life works.  We decided a long time ago that the only real way to live is to be exposed to stuff like that.  You just have to learn how to deal with it.  I find that I feel pain for others probably more then I feel it for myself.  And that is a good thing.  Not an easy thing, but a good thing.  But as I said at the first:  I made it through another day and I still have 'it'.  I'm sure that our going to the temple and doing initiatories helped out my cause quite a bit.  It's hard not to have 'it' there.  Anyway, tomorrow should be a good day to maintain 'it' or even make 'it' better.  So that is what I am going to try to do.