Things never turn out the way that you imagine.  I have come to know that that is true.  I guess in a way they can't because our imagination can never equal reality, and we can never imagine all of the variables that go into reality.  Besides our imagination is biased and should not 'come true' in just the way we see things.  I do think that being close would be nice sometimes, but if I really thought about it I need to see what comes about and accept it when it comes.  I need to learn how to not imagine and learn how to deal with the real world that I live in.  That being said I do know that what I see in my head can influence what does happen.  I see that my attitude especially does shape the reality of my world.  If I am positive and happy my world is affected that way.  If I am negative and grumpy my world reflects that too.  That make one attribute of mine kind of hard to deal with.  I have often said that I was a 'contrary', which is the case sometimes, but I know that I do examine what I see, hear and feel, and I make judgements accordingly.  When a speaker in church is not very good I try to get out of it what I can, but I don't see it as something that it isn't.  When a teacher goes outside of the boundaries of the guidelines we have been given I do the same.  Frankly, today's ward conference was filled with examples of both of those behaviors.   I did 'glean' something from all of them, but they are what they are, and I find it disappointing because if I can see it it is simple and if it is so simple it can be done better.  When the Lord says that he uses small and simple things to do great work I have to agree.  Great things come out, but they could be so much greater.  All I can do is notice, learn from what I observe and use it to make me better and anyone else who will listen when the time is right and the motives are pure.   I have thought many times that I ought to just let it go, to not see things according to some standard and just let them do what they will, but I can't.  I don't make much noise about it, but I can't help but to see it.  It seems a heavy burden, but if it can help me to be better in my own stewardship then so be it.  It is no greater burden then bearing the fact that I know the truth of things.  One has to learn how to handle that too.  In this world having the truth can be a great blessing, but it needs to be handled well.  So that other 'thing'  simply makes for good practice.