As if it isn't hard enough for  me to do right by my Saturday and use my time productively it goes and starts out the way it did this morning and takes me right out of anything like a mood to work.  We got together as family to celebrate Alexi's 12th birthday and send some balloons her way.  It is so hard for me to go to where that takes me and then come back and be normal, normal like work and stuff like that.  Right now it is 7 pm and I am ready to leave my office and spend the rest of my day before I go to bed in thought as deep as I am capable of.  I find that strangely satisfying and even though I have stuff that absolutely needs to be addressed I would rather leave it and go 'there' whenever I can.  It seems to strange to me to see life in these two different dimensions, but I do find both of them equally real.  The one may be more demanding, but the 'other' actually seems more real in a strange way.  The thing that makes them both worthwhile and important is that family is attached to both of them.  And on a day like today its attachment to the 'other' dimension of realty makes it more important then usual.  We 'Mormons' have a unique vantage point that isn't available to 'other' folk.  We know the truth of eternity past, eternity present and eternity future.  Once we 'know' and accept that realty it can't help but make the way that we think different then the way the other folk think.  I guess that I am just getting better at it, or I am just taking more time to consider it.  Either way each day comes to me in those two opposite yet complimentary realities.  It is quite a difficult task to do both of them justice at the same time.  But that is what I am attempting to do.  What do you think about that?