Sheila finally found the posting of the job with the school district that she has been waiting for since Monday.  She spent over an hour on the computer finishing up her packet to turn into the district to apply for the job.  She was really quite nervous about the whole thing and expressed her anxiety about this whole process that has been nerve racking to her.  I guess I can't really blame her.  It's been many, many years since she was out in the work world trying to land a job.  I do have a bit of experience, but not much as I consider my own history.  I remember the first years of our marriage and after I graduated from BYU when I was wondering about how I could possibly support the family we had (Sherri) and the family that we we have (all the rest).  It was not a pleasant time for me, and I went years before anything like that came up again.  Then just over 2 years ago when I got ousted as a Constable and had to turn into a Private Investigator I had some really bad  moments.  I well remember the scary times.  It was a very unpleasant time of my life.  And even after the miracle that got me and Richard into our new P.I. role it took well over a year before I started to get comfortable with the idea that I would be able to make a living for us.  So I guess that Sheila is entitled to a little nervousness over this process of applying, interviewing and getting a new job.  I do enjoy watching her squirm a little bit, but I will also be very happy for her when (not if) she lands this new job. She said that when she took the paperwork by the district office and turned it in that she had some separation (from the documents) anxiety.  She wondered if they would treat it right or if they might lose her application or if she had forgotten something or didn't do it correctly.  Now she needs to just wait.  And given her present state of  mind that might not be very easy for her to do.  Lot of things this week to get heart burn over.  We'll see how well she does.