Today has been a pretty full day.  A little weird though.  It's almost like I have been in another world and just doing what needed to be done here, but never quite losing touch with that other place.  I have been pondering at a deeper level then I have been used to as if I have kind of graduated to another level.  It hasn't made it easier, in fact, I feel like I'm in the quantum physics of pondering.  I'm trying to understand the why of everything I think, feel and do and am, and I haven't even gotten a clue yet.  Reminds me of my Statistics class at BYU.  I never did understand what was going on there.  Now I'm doing that with everything on a level that I wasn't even aware of before.  It is fun though.  I feel excited like the first day of school.  But it is real fuzzy to me right now.  My excitement is that because I have done it before and succeeded I figure that I will again and I anticipate it becoming clear to me if I just keep on working at it.  So sooner or later I will have a handle on 'it' and it will be at a higher level then I have approached before.  Does that sound as weird to you as it does to me? And is it real and something that will, indeed, do as I described it, or will I wake up in the morning and find that it was here for a day because of something that I ate or something?