I have taken some time to myself this evening.  Usually the wife and I find some TV that we like to watch together, but Thursday night's she has her's and I have mine.  So I pulled my bike (recumbent) up to the TV and did my 60 minutes of work while I watched 'my' shows.  It relaxes me and I'm glad that I can still do it.  I remember back in 2002 after I had my stroke in Colorado and had to drastically change my life style I started on a work out regimen.  At first I started slowly and actually had a hard time doing 15 then 20 minutes daily.  I worked my way to 30 and then 45 and it seemed like a long time before I worked my way up to a full hour.  Then it took a long time doing that before it became routine.  Now I have slacked off some figuring that my morning and night push ups take the place of some of that.  But when I exercise I go for the full 60 minutes and don't consider anything less.  After these years of regular exercise (since 02/02/02) I still have a lot to learn about my body.  Sometimes my pace is different just because.  I don't consciously do anything differently but my body reacts on its own and has its own pace which varies from day to day.  I haven't even tried to try to figure out why.  The same with my push ups.  Sometimes it seems easy and other times it seems hard to finish.  Maybe someday I'll understand why that is, but for now I just expect it to be different on its own and I simple go along with whatever 'it' feels like doing.  I know that I often think of quitting the whole regimen, it really is a lot of plain, hard work.  But I do recognize the benefits, and I know the truth of the benefits as well.  I hope that it helps me to live longer, but reality shows me that that is only wishful thinking.  All I can do it keep on and appreciate the benefits that I do see and know that no good deed goes unpunished (should that be unrewarded?)